Yesterday to today was a continuation of hell! :( not really but well...uncomfortable as hell ^^ sunday morning, me and aaron were dancing at the road downstairs my place till a good 5am ^^ heh...brunch at around 1 ._. i know its damn late!! Went to library to dance afterwards till around 2?but my body crumpled faster than i expected :/ in the library looking for a damned place to sit when Georgia joined us xP heh..really could call the library 'study' time corruption in progress xD so many stupid questions asked that well...stumped three guys X'D one more shawn... Well Georgia had to go broadway with her father, me and aaron coincidentally bumped into them 3 times :'D well, two was coincidental. Went for dinner at a japanese restaurant and the cat outside it! CUTE MAX . Haish...never damn expected this to happen :(
Woke up at 4...bed was really warm and this soreness in my throat. Die... Tried to get up, found my sense of balance gone. Couldn't even stand up straight...slept till about 12 and took my temp...39 -.- damn scared for a repeat of last year... NDE, got hospitalised,could not walk straight and would just faint whenever i stood up and for the second time i saw that bright light >< nausea...well yeap. Missed quite abit in school... :/ now after taking meds and sweating it out in my sleep...i must say i recover pretty damn fast^^ just tying up the loose ends of this particular fever...now to think of it, i started feeling sick the moment i took georgia's phone and she tried to snatch it back...
Had this weird dream. It was sweet, painful and sour all mixed into one, showed me about two things... Friends and Love. Weird eh? Always revolve around those two! I guess it was the fever screwing around with my brain...my grandmother said at one point of my sleep i was suddenly sleeptalking, and nearly went into fits. In my dream? I saw this crappy regurgitation of colours. A lot of signs, a lot of words, a lot of numbers. I think...i saw key dates in the past like 17 July, 20 July,27 September and many many more. My own horoscope sign( IKR...), the bittersweet feeling of having loved and lost. The emotions of loyalty, brotherhood and love. So much in 2 hours of sleep...basically the whole past of pain to love and into pain again, and then now the long but sweet climb into freedom of that. Pretty scary to see so much emotions in such a short time. Imagine trapped in a crumbling cage with wars flaring just inches from the bars of the golden cages? Yeah...even in the dream, 5 names entered my head, made me lose the fear and stand up again. Shall not mention as not all of them feel the same way about me... For these five, i want to stand by them always, with them.But most of all, one date stood out. 9th of February... I wonder why.
Guilt was also thrown in...i don't want someone to wait for me. I know one thing that, nobody should ever take the burden of someone as emotional as me. Haish... I'm already holding back alot, much of me has changed. The way i think, everything. But still, i'm pretty much a burden. That's why i try not to rely anymore. I try my best to improve alot of things. And i'll still try my very best. To the three people i trust to no ends, sorry i burdened you guys with my endless rant, well for me. To that girl, sorry i ignored you because i was tired as hell, emotional and moody. To another friend, i'm sorry i couldn't help you at all, no matter how much i never wanted to see you that way. I'm pretty lousy a person...Sigh...
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