A mayday parade song spree as i headed to the rink. Stay~That one special song. Holds many meanings and deep memories to me but anyway, just some things that i can never get back anymore... Ice skated again,felt different on ice today. I felt for the first time a want, or need to express myself on the ice... It was amazing,nothing less. Spins seems easier now after all the tries (spun and spun till i got dizzy)and just one, i did just one backward crossover!! :DD but only one -.- must get backwards the next session! Bloodied blisters again~A guitar session with an old friend... even my nail bled again this time -.-lll Goshh. She is really hopeless in fingerstyle...hopefully she'll practice hard!!
Dead tired after skating and guitar session...physically sore after last night -.- physicals not a problem but even my emotions caught up to me now. Was silly enough to think i can sort them out alone... So many things i discovered when having the session as the stringed notes reasonated in my head. But one thing i also discovered... A really good sign. There's only me left in my head~ and i'm only a few more days away from being okay again. Ready to open up like usual again~ my feelings have settled too. Saw this quote," do not find love, go to where love finds you" well..where might that be? Still hoping for one thing. Its no longer possible but its just something that keeps me looking forward to tomorrow and hopefully...as much i want to do, something will change. All it is now is just a quiet motivation...
Its a torture now to stay up tonight...i swear =.=
Just maybe one day you'd acknowledge me the way you used to...that'll be nice~
