A week left to christmas. Laughing at pretty much myself when i remembered my wish last year, at this same time. To find a girlfriend... Got more than i bargained for -.- oh well~ this year, i dont want any physical presents...i want just two things. Something that no amount of money can buy, many searches but scarcely around. Not even love..that i have already no hope for anymore. Just simply, a day of peace. Weird of me, the fifteenth christmas i go through , unlike most people who wants a white christmas and being with the one they love under the mistletoe(?) , i just want a day of solitude. Alone, just want the whole day to myself and nobody disturbing me. My second wish? Impossible already yet its just something to hope to~ someone to spend that special day with me. Contradicting of me...but more of someone to spend that quiet day with,but who am i to ask for that? Not when things are like this now. The first shall do perfect for me...
New years coming too. This year, the same as any other. The countdown alone. Others can have their start with their special someone, i'll have mine like always. Resolutions, off the charts. Many small wishes i hope come true but...pretty unrealistic now. Guess its about time that all feelings inside me are properly settled before this weekend. Going to be a babysitter for how many of my relative's daughters... ._. Called me along to celebrate with them christmas...touched much.
Feelings to you...just the dying embers left. But even embers can light a forest...
But i guess not anymore. The rains are falling softly...hopefully somebody'd hold a shelter and restart the flames~ probably the last time i'll ever burn for anyone. Being together with another person is as good as staying single sometimes... But all i want now is to be alone. I want to let go fully soon, since you've seemed to have already given up on me~
