Felt free. Really, really free and peaceful on the ice. What would i do to live near that kind of place? The ice literally set my mind wild. Unrestricted by all the emotional crap coming from inside, unrestricted by anything. Nobody could tell me what to do...the spins and slides. I loved every second of the cold air brushing past you as you speed up, the clap of steel blade on the smooth ice. Feel at home with the cold ice, the shave of it when you slide fast. These cold temperatures relaxes my mind to no end.Best of all? You just feel one with yourself. That i only feel in the presence of a guitar or a violin~
I do have the heart, and the want to get back. But i am scared of the kind of long, dragging pain. Had it been quick, no matter~ Just after awhile it seemed it was not worth the pain to fight for someone anymore, as compared to back then. Maybe i would have fought for someone to the ends, but now, if i were to fight for anyone, i'd rather turn away. Not everybody i know is worth the fight. Should have used that earlier on... Maybe i would have spared myself a great deal of pain.Gone through enough to last me quite awhile... Once bitten, twice shy. I was the blind idiot that dived headlong into this more than 4 times. Learnt to look before i fall, and will do so everytime. Seriously annoyed by somethings . Some other people's post, their problem. Telling me about what they post wont change anything. Like really, if you dont like the drama they are starting, tell them. I didnt force them to post it or whatever, telling me wont change anything. Pretty sick of people setting unreasonable standards for this stereotype called 'guys' . Yea yea... Keep going about how they are supposed to be strong and all. But when their pillar is taken away, even the strongest falls.
Just one more night, all these pain and feelings will be over
