Ice skate today~ I swear i suddenly felt really good. Felt like myself on the ice,simply loved every second of it, the cool air, the sound of steel hitting ice and the speed of weaving through the crowds. Felt like i just wanted to stay on the ice as long as i could,it sorta become an escape and a land of fantasy for me. Could forget everything that was disturbing me ...until my falls and blisters. Fell both when i tried to spin on the glossy, slippery ice -.- A cut on my forehead, an injured knee and two bleeding blisters...trouble walking and damn bloody sore all over >< I could vent all my stress by running on the ice and for the first time, my interest for ice-skating burns high and hard. Shall keep watching, maybe i would want to skate professionally? But i'll leave that to my next skating session~
Settled my feelings, and it ends up the same as ever.Hit by the sudden reality before coming out,its alot easier to become strangers again, than being bestfriends sometimes. Just, if i lose you forever...like even the barest of being friends, guess i would be pretty lost for awhile? Sure it was peaceful, but... Suddenly think of it, rather scared now. I don't want to be ridiculous. Please tell me how you really still feel about me. I'm damn bloody tired of trying to guess how you feel. Someone whose sweet words from that someone special can either make,or break me. The irony...
Just feeling damn guilty, damn insecure and a whole lot of fear. Rare i will feel like this.Wished sometimes , you would prove me wrong, you'd be harsh on me. Guess i did take you for granted. Sorry now means nothing. Thought my feelings had died but now, it never did.Starting to regret...even though i myself said one is not supposed to.Suddenly scared of losing you again. Now you're so far away.Not one to use memories to ask someone to if i know i'm not worth the person but please...stay?
