Thank god for these people. Aaron glenson weihan marcus yikang derrick kalynn leanne jiansheng and ali. Each and every person taught me something new, something good. Happy i know them, happy im close to them.
Workload is increasing like crazy. Sec 4 life is kinda fucked up i swear... So much expectations , so much problems started. I feel constricted and yeah...ever since things happened, i can't focus anymore. I'm losing appetite and sleep, making me irritable. I'm going to fall sick again.
I want to feel like being myself always. But thanks to...well idiots,i cant. Expectations, judgements and always being what they like to hear. I hate to have this happen but i have to make myself...truly solid. Devoid of emotions. Okay maybe not devoid, but enough to change me cruel. Think i was too easygoing, let people step all over me. Maybe its time i step up? Then again. I shouldn't be letting these small things affect me but i'm just...annoyed. Really badly annoyed. Over time things jist sorta gets on my nerves and...yeah. Breaking of friendship with 3 people took a toll on me. Still cant get over that...one at a time, no harm done but 3? A little too...
I shouldnt be swaying at all. Where is that hard stone faced creature you prided yourself so highly for? Now i'm breaking down everytime i see those people.
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Haish. I hide the pain i feel inside with this smile, that even i fell into the lie and when i want to get out of it, it's seriously tough. Feels like i'm swimming upstream with my arms tied, and downstream is a plunge to the death. I'm really so tempted to call out to you again, talk to you again, hear your voice again. But no more. Mistakes made, regrets too late. I can't change the past, all that's left is to live without them, people i trusted among the most. Now even more bonds are breaking and i'm there...
Scared.
